Yoga Teacher Training-Episode 6

For consistency reasons, I’ve titled this post “Yoga Teacher Training – Episode 6”, but really it should be titled “Dissolving of pain”.¬†Dissolving pain might not sound too great, but oh it is. You ‘only’ have to trust the journey.

Hip Openers

On Friday, we continued our yoga teacher training. Our teacher Nella already advised us beforehand that we will be working with hip openers majorly that day. Just hearing hip openers and thinking about it, I actually get warm and slightly nervous and so I did, when I read my teacher’s email.

Here’s why: when I travelled through Latin America and started looking at myself and my life in more depth than I ever did before, I stranded in Tulum, Mexico for a yoga retreat. During this retreat, I worked with a healer for a few sessions and I told him that I had been suffering from tight hips and groins for a year already (this was in Oct 2016). And for the first time in years, just by the healer mentioning words like “love”, “hurt”, “heartbroken”, “truth” and “trust”, I started crying. My tears were rolling and rolling. These tears, I knew instantly, were long overdue. I had very obviously locked up emotions and feelings – maybe in my hips? – for too long. Maybe because at the time I was not ready to really see and feel them, so me and my body thought, let’s put it aside for now. Problem is, this “for now” ended up being for years, which is why the words of the healer triggered me so quickly and heavily.

Fast forwarding to January 2017 after I had just returned from my travels, I visited a yoga and meditation workshop in Munich. Guess, what was a major part of the workshop called “A journey to your inner self“? Yes, exactly, hip openers. And again, I remember tears running down my face.

Listen to your body

I’ve had a few similar scenarios since then, where I felt emotional and nervous whilst practicing hip openers, but when we practiced them again last Friday, it was intense! Knowing of my physical and emotional challenges I’m obviously not that keen on hip openers, but I do know that I need to address this part of my body, that I need to look at it, that I need to feel it, so that the healing process can continue and that the pain can dissolve.

Just like water has cleansing properties, body work holds healing properties.

It was no coincidence that I was in the first row that afternoon and I was struggling,

  • physically (my thought: why for f***’s sake am I so tight?)
  • mentally (my thought: I cannot do this, it’s uncomfortable, why am I doing this?)
  • emotionally (my thought: what exactly happened, what is stored in my hips?)

If you are a yogi, you probably know what they say about the connection between our hips and our emotions. It’s said that our hip area is strongly connected with our emotions. Hence, an intense hip opener practice can bring up feelings of rage, sadness and anger.

Hips don’t lie!

During the practice I smoothed over the physically and emotionally challenging practice, but I could not hide my feelings anymore in Savasana. My tears started rolling, I experienced mixed feelings of sadness, relief, confusion and maybe a bit of anger not knowing what exactly these emotions are that I’ve stored in my hips.

And today (Monday) – whilst writing this blog post – I’ve decided to let it go. I don’t need to know which emotions exactly I’ve stored in my hips, but I do know that I want to go deeper here, that my body is telling me to look closer and that I really need to look closer in order to dissolve the pain. And only by being aware and mindful, we have the chance to change, for the better! So, from now on, I will be dedicating 20 minutes every day to hip opener exercises – happy hips, happy Nina!

Yours, Nina

PS: No, I am not using a picture of me in a hip opener pose… I chose the pic because water stands for cleansing and practicing hip openers will cleanse too. Pic taken in La Fortuna, Costa Rica.

 

 

 

Embrace change

Our lives can change to the positive, once we start embracing change.

It is funny how things changed my life in only 6 months after I left London to travel through Latin America. Once I started embracing the changes, I found that my life changed for the better. I trust that life has a plan for everyone and I guess in my case, the  relationship was simply not meant to last, but it was meant to bring me on this journey that would change my life fully. Life had better plans for me. Once I trusted myself and life, it all started working out by itself. Like a puzzle finally coming together.

Life has better plans for you. Trust the journey.

I believe we all want to control situations, other people, reactions, behaviours and life. But we also know that gaining control is impossible. If a person is meant to be in your life, he/she will. If you are meant to have that job, then you’ll get it. If a relationship ends, then it wasn’t meant to be. Just trust that life has a plan for you. Let go!

We also behave in certain ways and patterns hoping and expecting other people to recognise this and to act likewise and then we are deeply disappointed, if our expectations are not met. Expectations are a big challenge in today’s world, as most people look for their happiness outside of themselves. However, happiness can only ever be sought within ourselves. This means it is essential to be fully happy and at peace with yourself.

Once you are happy with yourself – and this is of course a process that you need to be ready to start – you’ll find that you can let go more and more, that you don’t want to control as much anymore, and that you’ll have less expectations on other people. That doesn’t mean by the way that we shouldn’t live up to our best possible standards and values, but we can’t expect other people to guess our expectations and to act the same way.

Disappointment is usually the result of miscommunication or lack of communication, based on our beliefs. In order to avoid disappointment, it’s therefore critical that we communicate our beliefs, values and wishes in every relationship, be it professional or personal. Dare to speak your truth and the right people will come into your life and those people who were meant to accompany you only for a certain period of time, let them go.

Be grateful that you had them in your life, as you can learn something from each and every person and every situation. Just think about it. I am for example grateful for the relationship that ended during the trip, as life waved at me saying that I needed to be true to myself and my values. I’m grateful that this relationship somehow brought me on that journey. Who knows, maybe I wouldn’t have done it on my own…?

Let’s embrace change, love ourselves and be grateful.

Yours, Nina